Actual Sunlight
ActualSunlight is a game about depression. You play as a man in his late
twenties who believes his life is ruined because...well, he has a lot
of reasons.
You
can walk around, click on things, and that's about the extent of it.
When you click on things you get a wall of text, an insight into
Evan's Winter's personal narrative. But there's no choice, no agency,
you're just there to read. Ultimately you have to move the keys to
get from one text to the other but you may as well not be there.
Since
then I've played more games, and now I don't make arguments like
“that's not a real
game.” I've played Gone Home, and other games that were
just...experiences. So I played this game over again, and tried not
to judge it based on my original criticism. Yes, it's just text, but
is it good text?
To
be honest, I'm not sure. Reading through it, I felt mostly irritated.
But now upon reflection, I'm not sure why. Maybe because I used to
suffer from depression and I can't stand hearing that irrational
rationale that goes through a person's mind when they try to justify
why they feel so shit. Because it's not honest.
So
I couldn't really even get into the feel of this game. I think
because my mind sort of kicks back against those kind of negative
thoughts now. I couldn't follow the character down the hole he was
digging himself.
So,
the game didn't resonate with me. And I don't know if it was really
bad writing or just me reacting badly to it. Maybe a better game
would have been able to draw me into this guy's problems more
sympathetically. Or maybe this game is good for most people, just not
me? It's got favourable reviews. But so does a lot of trash.
The
other thing that bothers me is that even if this is a good depiction
of depression, I don't think it really has any particular insights
into the condition? It's just a portrait with no greater statement.
I
think I have to go with my gut. My gut says I played this twice and
didn't like it twice. I'll let other people decide if the game works
for them. Maybe
pick
it up if you've never understood depression and really want to. Even
then, I hope there are better examples out there. 1.5/5 stars.
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